Past couple of days,I have been noticing that i am standing outside the circle, specially today when I was walking down the stayres of the studio, I saw that there was some one else, going down the stairs not me, it was a very lucid feeling, it did not last for a long time, but I know it was there.

For past few days I feel I am going back to my Osho days the days of living on the edge and witnessing everything from outside, but a time came I got caught up in life's very mundane things, or was just trying to be different and very egoistic. I n when own ego I dug my grave, now I understand what Osho always say, ego is death.

But now I am again feeling that I have come back to my guru, had gone on a wrong path and have now comeback. Everyday feels like I am living in trans.........................nothing is for real, sometime I check my feet, wondering if they are on ground or not. I know my inner cleansing process has begun.