lost the spark!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am in the deepest of shit. I have not been able to finish any writing work, no ideas, it's blank. I used to have nice ideas in me, could think of lovely new, smart, fresh ideas; but now I think it is all gone.

Man it is so frustrating point in life, that I have not been able to finish any work, interview went bad, as I did horribly wrong. It has been very disappointing in life, I am 35yr, can't think out of the box, go crazy trying to think; if I let go no thoughts come anyways.

It frustrate's me, I know I had it, not that I haven't done it, but now nothing. No creative spark, no money, I feel like killing myself, which i know will not solve the problem.

I am just cooking and nothing else, where life has come to?

How long will we go like this???????????????????????????????